It's nearly been a
year. I still have it, kepy hidden in my room. I found it easier
to try to forget you then talk about you and try to live without
you. When i got the message that you were walking away, down my
best friends driveway with people whom had the biggest smiles on
their faces. That cold, hard, dark empty feeling deep in my
heart, it will never be replaced. Just like you could never be
replaced. I'm forever feeling that I have let you down and that I
could have prevented it from happening or even have given you a
better life. you had an amazing life. You also had an amazing
personality. I strongly believe that no one could understand
just how much you mean to me. I know your not gone. But apart of
me feels like it. When I saw you at 12:47pm 17th August, it
almost thought like I didn't want to see you. Not because I
didn't love you anymore, because the more I see you, the more I
become attached, and each time it just gets harder and harder to
say good-bye. It's because you were my everything, and then to
have something that meant that much to me, just be taken away.
Gahh, it's the worst feeling in the world. They say never make
something your everything, because once they are gone you'll have
nothing. I guess you don't quite understand it, until it happens
to you.I didn't think that I could live without you. Turns out i
was wrong, I can live without you... But I just don't want to.
You're forever played on in my mind. I don't think anyone would
want to know how many tears, a certain two girls have cried over
you. I hope with all my heart, you'll be mine again. But until
then.. I love you. Forever and Always.
PLEASE READ... ITS WORTH IT!