What
should I
say and where do
I begin? As
I meet the eyes
that only see me, I
feel a
smile come on
that weighs me
down. This automatic response
that makes your
eyes twinkle. I have
to stop doing
this. I've
ordered your
favourite but I'm worried you
won't like it when
this dinner ends. All the
words I've kept
hidden. The thoughts my
foolish heart
has tried to
overcome. I
think I will
share them tonight.
A silence has fallen
over us. How
do I say it without
breaking down?
How do I leave you
behind without hurting
you? For you, loving
was something
light and
beautiful. But for me
it was a heavy and
difficult
feeling. What came
easily to your
heart had confused and
tired mine. I
can't wrap
this up nicely. I
can't do
this anymore. What was supposed to be
love has
left me suffocated as I smile
before you. This
automatic response
that keeps me
here. I keep smiling at
you like an
idiot.