Will i leave a mark that leaves
people saying i did well? do i even need those words? why have i
convinced myself that i'm above such words? i do need much. i
can have standards. i'm not a low maintenance person.
throughout the day, when i laugh, i think..."yes, this is
really all i need." Just one thing that makes me laugh, even
for a moment. but i chase that thrill. It turns into, "even
if i can find a bit of delight in this donut, i'll let myself
indulge." But i don't know how to do this self care
thing. i'm either hard on myself or letting myself go.
there's no period in between where it's not destructive.
but yeah. i've overcome everything that has already come,
this shouldn't be any different. i don't even have to
overcome it, just become accustom to it. accept it as a part of
my personality...even if it doesn't have to be.
