Today we had another argument. He thinks I'm just jealous because of his friend/girlfriend or whatever. But I'm just scared he'll do the same thing my "best friend" did, as soon as he had a girlfriend he just stopped talking to me. I'm so scared to lose him. At the same time I'm mad at myself for letting him in in the first place.

I really need to stop letting people in. After the argument I cried for an hour. & then he called me as if it was nothing venting about his problem.

If he doesn't want to be with me, why would he always come venting to me? Why would he say that he'd do anything for me? Why would he give me a car? Why would he call me back instantly, when I hung up on him?

I just couldn't bear to lose him. I need him in my life. But I need to stop driving him away with my insecurities. :/