It kinda sucks you know. I've known for a while
we're not as close as the others, that our friendship was way
too superficial. But aren't you being too much? You stay up
till it hits exactly midnight to send the others a paragraph of
how much they mean to you on their birthday. I wish I could trick
myself into thinking that I didn't need one of those texts
from you...but when I didn't wake up to anything, it's
embarrassing to admit, but I was surprised. Weren't you being
too much? You invited me along to lunches as you gifted them
presents, I told myself I didn't want anything from you, but
when you turned up empty handed, it's pathetic, but I was
surprised. Have you given up on me? Finally realised there's
better out there? Can you finally let go of me now? I've
never liked surprises. I've always wanted to though.