I have one good friend that I love and care about. When I
see her I feel my mood get 100 times better. She smiles at me I
smile at her. Our conversations are light hearted in person, we
delve a bit deeper in our text messages. I'm glad to have
her. I'm glad she could show me what it means to have a true,
wholesome friend. I have these other people I hang out with. My
mood when I'm with them isn't the best. I can't help
but feel like they don't respect me. Like I'm an easy
target, or pushover. I know I just need to be firm once and for
all, but I don't want to go that far. Because being firm in
their books would have to be something as clear as a loud shout.
More than just "Stop it, you're being too much."
But something short of a meltdown. And I don't want to go
that far. I've been distancing myself. Slowly easing myself
out of our decade of "friendship". They're not the
same anymore, I want to speed this process up, but I also want it
to happen naturally. Why is this so hard.
