I told you I thought you liked me too much. That if we
got together it'd be hard on you. You said you could handle
it. I care about you a lot, but I still feel the same way. You
have blinders on when it comes to me. My friends and family think
it's sweet...but I feel bad. We'd never work out if we
got together now. I'd push you around too much. I would try
my best not to, but that's just how I am with you. I'm
sorry. I always apologise and make the slowest progress. But
I'm trying. I think it counts for something. You always say
you can handle it. I always get upset with you. What is it
exactly that you can handle? Me? I can't handle myself most
of the time. You need to take care of yourself too. You always
say you'll take care of me. It irks me. It's like
something out of a drama. So what if you've got the finances?
I always tell you I have no interest in spending your money. You
used to get mad at that, you dummy. What would you have done if I
was the opposite? I'm sure you wouldn't have liked me
very much. Anyhow, back to that I'll handle it line you love
so much. You never want me to deal with my own problems. I always
joke if you want to be my boyfriend or my "lil bitćh"
lol. You're not fond of that name, but it'll be all yours
if you don't start being a little selfish sometimes.
Don't think about me too much. I'm not as fragile as you
think my dumdum. At the end of the day, I do love you and I'm
not going anywhere, so chill~
