Do you know how many nights
I've spent writing and rewriting paragraphs only to never
send them to you? How I've spent hours into the night staring
at my screen or paper trying to find words that mean something,
words that would be worth your attention. Only to give up because
my mind isn't capable of expressing what I feel in words. I
know that phrase is over-used but I really can't find the
words that somehow others can to express what is felt about you.
And I hate that, but right now I want you to know I love,
appreciate, care for, admire? DAMNIIT THESE WORDS
MEAN NOTHING THEY AREN'T EVEN CLOSE TO WHAT I FEEL.
Maybe If I find more emotional words like "My heart
pitter-patters for you" no, nobody says that anymore. What
about how she affects my life? Who am I kidding, if I knew how
she affected my life we wouldn't need to date. Why is
this so hard?
Maybe I'll have the words tomorow...
I'm going to bed.
