today I ran into my ex-best friend's 
grandma. she kept going on and on
about how we need to work things
out and be friends again. she said
that my ex bestie wanted to, and 
talked about how we used to be 
closer than sisters. to top it off, my
sister kept telling me I need to try
and make up with her. so, I got my
sister to message her and kind of
extend the olive branch. in return,
I get rejected and then it's suddenly
my fault (she was just as bad as me.
I wasn't the only one that was mean.
it takes two.) and her mom apparently
doesn't want me anywhere near her.
like, everyone wants to criticize me
for being mean and all that, but look
what happens when I try to make 
myself vulnerable. like, it's not worth
the hurt. I was fine like two weeks 
ago and now I'm a mess.