when we first started dating, you told me
that i was "too good to be true." that you
knew there was no way possible that such a 
beautiful girl could have a such a great
personality.

i noticed the nervousness wear off between 
the two of us and our more natural personalities
begin to show. i felt slight tension, but i still stayed.
i wanted to believe that i was only being paranoid 
and that things were perfectly fine.

i noticed that we sometimes didn't talk to each
other like significant others should. i know you
told me that you weren't good with emotions and 
affection, but i still stayed. i wanted to believe
that i was only being paranoid and that things
were perfectly fine.

i noticed that i had to beg you at times to let us do 
what i wanted. i noticed that i wouldn't get sweet 
goodnight texts or goodmorning texts as often
as i thought a boyfriend would send them. you 
you suggested that we might be better off as friends.
i still had confidence that we could work out as a 
couple. you didn't always make me feel like i was
good enough to be yours because of my quirks and my oddities, but i still stayed. i wanted to believe that i
was only being paranoid and that things were
perfectly fine.

then you realized i wasn't always going to be happy. 
that i was going to have on and off days and be bothered
by things and cry and express emotion. i wanted you to
be there to help me, but you didn't understand, so you
just left; probably because i was too much to handle
with other troubles on your plate. i wanted to stay, but
you left me. you couldn't handle me.

now you don't care about me. sorry i wasn't
as great as you thought i would be. am i still
"too good to be true"? or was that being in a happy relationship?

-g.j.