ugh god i feel like this is the only place that i can
vent. Robby i want you sooo bad and idk if youre into this or not
but i am 😅 i wrote you this but never sent it:"Robby I hope
you can understand that I made a mistake on Friday I didn't mean
to worry you or annoy you or upset you but honestly you were the
one I texted first to apologize to because you're the one that
matters the most to me. I felt that if everyone else knew it
would be fine but if you knew I was done for. Srry if it seemed
weird or If I was keeping you up but my first instinct was "oh
god he's gonna hate me I have to fix it" These days I haven't got
much to look forward to so I couldn't have afforded to lose one
of the only things that puts me at ease. I feel like even though
we've only really texted for a couple days that if I told you
anything you would be there for me, and I really appreciate that.
I know you don't know exactly what happened but I'd like to keep
it like that. Plus I'm sorry that all of my friends and their
families feel the need to harass you because I have a crush on
you. Anyways I know you're probably thinking like what the heck
because this text has no order or organization but I really just
dumped my heart out so I wouldn't expect anything less. Thanks
for reading this even though I'm probably just a nuisance to you
now...I hope we can talk again but I understand if you don't
wanna."anyways...if you see this some way somehow then yeah i
like you but you already knew that...im sorry i cant just be
normal. im sorry i cant just back off because its obvious that
you dont like me, its just a feeling that i cant shake and i dont
know why im sorry that...idk im just sorry. even if nothing ever
works out at least i can say i tried and i hope youll still think
of me every now and again
