I don't know how
to be emotional. Showing emotion is what makes us human, right?
It's like I reprogrammed myself to never tell anyone when
things began to hurt. Like I trained myself to internalise the
stress and pain. Sometimes I love it about myself. That I
can't let emotions cloud my judgement or whatever. But
I'm scared I'll be like this forever. So I pin this
hope that I'll find someone who I can unload some of my
worries onto, and just talk about it. I do have people I could
do that to now, but I don't want to burden them. Hah. A
burden. It's funny how it's totally fine, and it
practically invite people to be a burden on me, but the minute
I let them in to my troubles I worry about being a burden on
them. Wow that sucks.