i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for trying to tell myself that i am important and trying to make myself feel important constantly, every day, when no one else does or even bothers to help.

i want someone to tell me that i am brave for taking the benefit of the doubt and sitting with the same people in the cafeteria who always leave me out of everything and never invite me to anything, brave for assuming that i am too sensitive and that i have to give them another chance for their friendship.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a positive and optimistic attitude even when i am always the third or fifth wheel of everything, the last to know each detail, or the one who is never told.

i wish someone could tell me that i am courageous for no longer crying and isolating myself even more when things went wrong with my social life and actually putting in effort to fix it, even though that effort has not brought any change.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for constantly pretending that i am okay with how i feel like i'm being treated.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a smile on my face while people don't consider how i really feel inside.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for walking into a place every single day where i know that i am no one's and not ever will i be anyone's first choice, best friend, ride or die, or person they genuinely and seriously want in their life.

i wish that someone could tell me that i am strong for existing in a world where there are people all around me, but there is not one who truly cares about ME or who I AM. 

it's a struggle that doesn't seem to be understood by many, but that does not mean that it's not a difficult one. i know nobody knows exactly what i'm going through, but i just want to be recognized for my extensive efforts in trying to keep myself happy and making the best out of my life. just for once.