And then I
thought you were actually serious this time.
Your usage of words and sweet caresses realed me in and I was
hooked once again.
I was held captive in your arms whenever you wrapped yourself
around me
and was instantly paralized every time I stared into your
eyes.
You left me without a single goodbye and I'm left wondering if
it was
something I said or did. Perhaps it was something I didn't say
or do.
I was never good with speaking out loud, and my shyness has always
kept
me from showing exactly what I want to show.
They way you've gone has caused a cold front to move into all
places of
my heart. I already believed everything ever said about love was a
lie, and I'm
not quite sure why I thought you would be any different. I drank
the poison
spoken from your lips without question and now I'm left laying
on my
bed and listening to songs that would make me hate you while
my
insides rot with the toxins you poured into me.
I never quite got back up from the first time I fell for you, so
I've been sitting
on the ground ever since. You leaving has caused me to
completely numb myself
from so much pain that it's almost impossible for me to feel
anything else.
I promise to get myself back up all on my own without any help, all
the
while I reject anyone who tells me it's okay to accept a
helping hand.
I hope you're happy with what you have left me to
become.
And of course you'll be happy. I was just someone to help you
out
with your boredom.
I'm glad I could keep you entertained.
And then I thought you were actually serious this time. Your
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Sep 13, 2015 10:51pm
Terribly Taurus* · 8 years ago
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This... is. Yes. For the past few months, this has been me, and I appreciate knowing someone else has had these feelings.