I wish
I wish you would just hit me

Physically abuse me

Instead of this psychological bullshit.

At least then you’d be able to see

See the damage 

See my pain

At least then you’d know.

Bruises, cuts, broken bones,

They heal.

I’m broken

And no amount of ice can bring down my swelling 

No amount of stitches can repair my wounds
I’m broken 

And I don’t know how to fix myself anymore. 
I wish you would just hit me

At least then I’d be able to heal