MY THROAT TIGHTENS FILLING UP WITH
PAIN AND I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I CAN'T AND IT HURTS SO MUCH
AND ALL I CAN DO IS THINK OF PICKING UP A BLADE SLASHING OVER AND
OVER AGAIN WAITING FOR THE PAIN TO TEAR IT RIGHT OUT OF ME BUT
THEN IT COMES BACK SO I SLASH AND SLASH DESPERATE FOR A RELEASE
THAT I CAN'T REACH. I'M TRYING SO HARD TO SCREAM AND TO
CRY BUT I CAN'T. there's something about the blood and
that shiny piece of metal that grasps my full attention until
finally it all stops. i feel numb. tired. finally. i feel
nothing.
