I
was nothing but a mere penicl park on your brain that you could
just erase again, never to be thought of again. i tell everyone i
do not care that we are no longr friends but the wound cuts so
deep i have to stop it from bleeding everyday. I speak your name
in anger and mock disquist because no one would understand the
heart ache i have for loosing someone i used to call my
bestfriend, someone who's house was mine every weekend. i
know it sounds silly that a friendship could break my heart but i
asure you i felt it crack in all the right places. making friends
is a chore, something i struggle to do because anxiety suffocates
me each time i make an attempt. Attatching myself to the friends
i do have, valuing friendships more than most people will ever
know. Our friendship was something i believed would last beyond
our high schoold days but it ended at the second year.anyone will
tell you that i hate you with all of my being but saying i hate
you is so much easier than saying i miss you. we could be put
back together again with some needle and a thread but i refuse to
allow myself to forgive and god forbid forget the reasons why we
came apart in the first place.and everytime i go to write
something amaizing, i look for inspiration and the only thing i
seem to come up with is you. of course i'm not perfect nor am
i a good friend to everyone but i was a great friend to you,too
bad the favor wasn't always returned.The friendship we had
was a special kind that can't quite be understood, not even
by me. As i continue to write this i can picture your reaction if
you were to ever lay your eyes on it. you would either laugh and
say "what a stupid b**ch" or maybe just maybe tears
would fill your eyes , your heart will ache for a second and
you'll miss me too..
