Today i allowed myself to
venture off into the depths of all my memories and think about
us.wild nights we spent running around the streets trying to get a
taste of life and loving every moment of it. escaping out of your
house like trapped animals locked away in cages craving to be set
free, getting so high we swore we could've touched the stars.
our lips were fountains spilling secrets, dreams, hopes and fears
into eachothers ears because we knew that this type of friendship
isn't one that can be broken;but we were young then, naive.
Drinking until everything was funny, smoking until our eyes were
apple red and sucking on ciggeretttes because it calmed us down.
These memories are the things i will remember when my skin is that
of a prun and looking back on my young self is the only thing i can
do to keep me alive. Today though i will only think about us for a
moment so i don't end up holding onto false hope that we could
ever go back to the way things we used to be. Now i escape into the
night with someone else, i reach the moon with other people, i
drink myself silly wtihout you and i stopped sucking on cigerettes.
you changed as quick as the leaves do in the depths of autumn and i
tried to be the tree, keep you hanging on ,but life doesn't
work that way. Now you get high with someone else, sneak out with a
new bestfriend, drink until you can't stand without me and suck
down cigerettes and spilling your secrets with them, not me. The
impossieble happened, we're no longer friends something no one
could have predicted. I miss you terribly although i will never
tell you that because you don't deserve the satisfaction, to
you i was replacable, un important and not the type of friend
you'd let go of your pride to save. So before the sadness
engulfs me i'll stop the flow of memories that are my
ex-bestfriend and pretend i'm fine .
Today i allowed myself to venture off into the depths of all
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Jul 6, 2014 8:38pm