When I was little,
I
used to believe that on expressways, during roadtrips, all the
cars were racing. I wasn't aware that 70% of earth was
covered with
water chose to think that it was entirely made up of land and
roads that lead to one place. In my mind, all the vehicles were
traveling to
one destination. I remember being strapped by a seatbelt in the
back of a mini van and feeling frustrated at either of my
parents-
who were the ones driving- when a bigger, even better, car
drove ahead of ours. For some reason, I was desperatley wanting
to be in
the car that lead the way to the one place. Regardless of
wanting this, I knew that there was always going to be a faster
driver in a
luxurious car that had the privledge of being ahead; along with
another one that followed close behind and so on. This managed
to
upset me everytime our car drove somewhere far. I felt
irrelevant and small to be a part of a car that drove somewhere
in the middle
of the long race. Middle
translated to average in my mind, which to this day is
something I strongly dislike and somewhat fear.
Which was weird; considering that normal kids were scared of
monsters, while I was afraid of being normal. So this is
dedicated to
anyone who is or someday will be a part of my life. Bare with
me if I'm impulsive, or if I cry in the middle of the
night. Just know that
I'm a human, who is trying to figure out a way to live. I
know this doesn't excuse any of the mistakes I will someday
make, but one
time I had heard that somebody wished that people had just come
along with warning lables. So this is
it.
This is my
warning lable.
