Dear
Diary, Today was a long day in school and I haven't really
eaten anything yet today. But I guess that's good. I just
wanted to write something real quick before I go off to bed So
here it goes.
Dear diary I'm fourteen and I always feel so
nervous. Tell me why is it that
everyone is so perfect. While I feel
so worthless, and they look so
happy. While lately for me, my mood
has been crappy. And I have come to
believe all the things that I'm
seeing. On magazines and TV, of every single perfect being. All
the girls with perfect bodies, and
such amazing skin. Oh
how I would
kill to live the life that they are
in I've been trying to lose weight over that past
couple of weeks Throwing up after
meals, on the rare times that I eat. But that isn't enough,
I still need to do much more. To get
this guy to notice me, people wonder
what for. There's so much room in my tummy that it
isn't funny I don't wanna be people's
dummy, but either way I feel dumpy.
Most of the time I am left here,
thinking to myself," Oh god is this worth it,
or do I need some help." I've been
used by guys, I've been
hurt by girls I've been hit by my
mom, and cursed by the world So I
keep losing weight, just trying to be
perfect. I'm waiting for somebody
to tell me that I'm worth it.
You're not alone.
-mikelwj
