That awful moment when one of your worst fears happens and there is
literally nothing you can do to stop it and you just sit there
feeling like you are in a dream and you don't understand how what's
going on can be real and then the sobs start and you realize that
its not a nightmare that its reality and you can literally feel
your heart shatter into a million pieces and you have no one around
to pull you into a hug and tell you everything is going to be
alright and you have no one to talk to and you feel like you are
literally alone and you feel like its never going to be okay again