As a girl who hasn't been on witty for more than a year:
I used to be so sad, all the time. I used to feel so empty.
I could barely walk past a mirror without bursting into tears; I
disliked my appearance that much. I thought I would never
have a boyfriend, because who would like such a sad, ugly person?
I had hurt people I cared about, been hurt by others I cared
about, and witty was where I came to get away from it
all.
But it does get better.
I woke up one day last yearand was completely sick of it.
Sick of being sad. Sick of holding back tears all the time. Sick
of feeling not good enough.
So I changed. Simple as that. I woke up one morning and decided I
would be a better, happier person.
It wasn't easy. I'm not going to pretend that after
that day everything was easy, and I'm not saying that I
don't still feel how I used to some times. It took a lot of
hard work, a lot of fake smiling when I really wanted to burst
into tears, a lot of being nice to people even when I wanted to
stab them, a lot of focusing on what was good about myself and
the world even when all I could see was the bad. It took a very
long time, a lot of tears and a lot of energy.
But I did it.
I feel so much better now; I look better; I have more
friends; I have the guy of my dreams.
But all of this came about because I chose to do something
about it.
I stopped caring what people thought, and did what made me
happy.
I didn't wait for a boy to come along and make me happy,
I took matters into my own hands. Then, when I was happy in
myself, I found someone so perfect, who a year ago I may not have
had the courage to be myself with. But I did, and he loved me for
it.
Don't expect life to change if you're not prepared
to.
But if you are prepared to change, and put in the effort,
life will get better.
I promise.