Dear friend,
Three things happened today. First I was sitting in my last
class and talking to the friends I made this year. We
aren't super close- just people you talk to because you
sit by each other and they're kind. Well I realized how
nice they were and that they had good hearts and then I
realized how I don't trust them. I truely think
they'd screw me over. I know that sounds so stupid- and I
wish I didn't feel like that. I should trust them, they
haven't given me a reason not too? But yet, I can't
bring myself to do it.
Secondly my old friend came back this year. We weren't
super close but he was someone I sometimes talked too.
He's been gone for almost two years and both of us have
changed quite a bit. He told me how he was planning his
suicide and such and I just want him to be okay. But then at
the end of the day I was waiting for my bus and he came up to
me and was talking and then he goes, "I got to go, bye
Hannah!" and he hugged me. It was so such a small
gesture but it made me think. Just about the small things for
that little of a moment.
The third happened in my first block class when I was
thinking while my teacher was lecturing. I was looking at all
the people and I started thinking about everything I knew
about them. I knew a lot about most of them sense I've
known most of them for most of my life. I basically grew up
with them sense school. I realized that although I hate most
of them or most of them hate me- we're all we got. We as
a generation are like a family and although we may not like
it- it's real and it's not going to change.
With thoughts
and troubles, Hannah.
