Ever think that maybe I don't want your sympathy. Ever think that I only wanted you to see things through my eyes. The way things die The way a heart continues to beat even if it breaks The way a man loves a son The way a woman loves a man The way the music seeps into your bones and every inch of your skin tingles Ever think I just wanted to share my world with you? Ever think I was just trying to be the best daughter I could be? With all your mistakes I still longed to please you. But with every mistake of mine I became a burden. My demons know me all too well, resting at the back of my eyes In my dreams,In my nightmares. It was a world I thought you'd enjoy. But you couldn't see it through my eyes. Now I'm a mistake walking on two legs. You smile and nod,but you don't hear me. How many more times do I have to grit my teeth and swallow down the you in me. Ever think through all of this I was waiting for you. Look me in the eyes,see for once the pain I hide. I only wanted you to be proud. But I'm not the same person you used to know. I see it even in your eyes,that you're scared. That I'm just a little too much. Words like nails on a board. I'm sorry I give you my sympathy. For having to deal with little old Me. I know it wasn't easy. But I'm not sorry for growing up. Or leaving and finding myself. I am sorry I'm not what you dreamed of. But Hey,Mom. I love you. Even If you hate who I've become