Dear friend,
That sounds like something from The Perks of Being A
Wallflower, but it's not. Trust me. I just don't have
anyone to talk too and I felt like this was always a place for me
to write out my feelings. So that's what I'm doing.
I don't even remember the last time i posted a quote. Most of
you know I was going downhill. That hasn't changed. But who
really expected it too?
Although I had stopped self harming I picked up the habit again and
this time I haven't told a soul. You guys are the first too
know, but it's different then telling my friend.
I can't complain to my friends anymore because I know I'm
annoying. I don't want to push them away but sometimes it feels
like they wish I would.
I know they're growing sick of me, but who
wouldn't?
I lied to my friend and told her I asked for help, but in truth,
I'm still to scared to ask for help.
It was easier than her telling me that I should ask my mom to get
me help. That's something I'll never be able to ask.
I think I don't want help because I'm hoping one day
I'll just get so depressed that I'll finally be able to
kill myself. It seems as though that would be best and it is what I
want. But with school starting I know the time will come soon
enough.
I'm dreading going to school and I only have a week left till
I'm forced to walk down those horrid halls with people who hate
me. I hate them back though, it only seems fair. Most of them are
judging, or rude, or just have a problem with me for reason I still
yet to have figured out.
I'm sick of feeling unhappy.
I used to say that with tears in my eyes but if I'm being
honest I don't think I can cry anymore. I don't really feel
anything anymore so crying doesn't happen much anymore.
Tears won't come out and I'm left feeling numb.
I guess in conclusion I just wanted to be able to type this
somewhere and let it out.
Please don't worry about me, it's annoying, and not worth
your time.
Just know I'm thankful for this website and letting me post all
this.
Dear friend, That sounds like something from The Perks of Being
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Aug 7, 2013 4:54pm
dragonfly26 · 1 decade ago
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I'm probably really annoying at this point.
But it's not about me.
I'm always here. I genuinely care about you and your problems, and I want to help. Just please, know that I will always be willing to talk if you need help. I know that you can get through this.