I can’t believe it’s only
been three months it feels like so much longer to be honest. I
remember May 3rd you were still alive, it was our 4 months and you
weren’t online i was kind of bitter but i was like whatever
he’s sick. And then the 4th comes and iva ran away she
didn’t want to tell you had died and Vivian did it. She just
lost it and she told me when she was mad. I don’t even
remember what i felt like before i had found out, i don’t
remember the happiness you gave me, or how amazingly loved i felt.
Recently i haven’t really had anyone to talk to so much.
Conrad kind of hates me. I’ve been reading your emails non
stop. I mean you cared so much and you were the one dying. Why
didn’t anyone tell me? I sure as f.uck would have flown to
Croatia. I would have layed on the floor or in your bed and i would
have held your hand and kiss your forehead i would have babied you
to no end, you would have met me i would have god i would have done
something. But instead you aren’t here anymore and i’m
left alone. When we dated i honestly felt like you loved me. You
know how insecure and stuff i am, but i really did think you loved
me. I don’t think anyone loves me anymore and that hurts even
more. When i see you and i don’t take my pils it makes me
feel like you care. But they will force me to take those pills, but
i can’t when i want to die its you that saves me even now.
You were always my twin, you are still my twin. Maybe that’s
why it hurts so much you know? Because you’re my twin
and when one dies the other is missing a part of them. It was only
1150 last night and i was already sobbing. I’m sorry i have
failed so much, i was getting better and than you left me. I love
you Alexander and that won’t ever end. Thank you for being in
my life for those 6 short months, thank you for being my non
biological twin. Thank you for being my brother. Rest in Peace
Alex, We’ll never be apart now
I can’t believe it’s only been three months it feels
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Aug 4, 2013 4:27pm
The Chosen One* · 1 decade ago
Dalton,I never cry,never.
I cried.
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