The hardest thing for me is letting myself digest food.
Letting all those calories seep into my bloodstream. Letting my
belly inflate and weight increase. The fat and carbs and sodium
and sugar infest my insides.
Its so hard to allow myself to digest food. It's so easy to go
into the bathroom and simply shove a finger down my throat.
Seeing all my sugary, fatty, calorie enemies flow down the drain.
Keeping myself empty and clean.