Oh dear, I need to vent.
So my bestfriend and his girlfriend just broke up. She's
really messed with his head the past two years. He's scaring
me now, because 1) I've never seem him so sad that he cried
in front of anyone and 2) he keeps saying that he just wants to
die. I love this guy like my big brother and it hurts me to see
him like this. I don't wanna keep bugging him, but he's
talking like he's suicidal and it scares the sh/t outta me.
He has too many people that care about him. I honestly think she
never truly loved him...just used him for things because she
really couldn't get any other guys in our school (it's
not like we have a big selection of guys around here anyway). I
don't know what to do. I want to help him soooo bad but all
he wants is to be alone. Apparently his home life right now
isn't too great either. Which, I know how that feels. But I
know that if he's alone too long he'll talk himself into
doing something stupid. Like I said, I love this kid. He's
like the brother I never had. I just want him to be safe and not
hurt himself. He's my best friend...
On a brighter note, while we were back in the computer room, he
was crying and stuff, and the guy I liked just made me like him
more. He was talking to my best friend, telling him how he hates
to see people upset and stuff and he wanted to know what was
wrong, and he was just trying to help him out. I dunno, just gave
me more resepct for him. Plus, he did a few more things today
making my doubts about anything between us kinda fade away.
I'm still not sure yet. But anyhoo, if any of you have been
through this where either you or your friend felt like this, let
me know if you know what I should do. I want to help so bad.
I'm praying that he'll get better or at least not hurt
himself...
Thank you so much for reading this. <3