Hey guys. So I'm not sure if this should belong
under the school category of not. It's more about my
experience this year with bullying. Right now I need to vent so
I'm going to write out an abbreviated version of what's
been going on. But first a little about me. My name is Melissa,
and I'm 17 years old. I've always been told I'm a
nice person, though I don't believe any compliments people
give me anymore. I remain quiet and keep a lot to myself. Earlier
in the school year, I began receiving these malicious anonymous
notes, and each one reminded me how worthless, fat, ugly, stupid,
annoying etc I am. They told me I should kill myself, they
reminded me that no one cared about me, and people would be happy
with me gone. They told me they wanted to watch me slice open my
wrists and my arms and my legs, and watch me hang myself, or
shoot myself. They go on and on into detail, and it's all
been so hard on me. I'm a pretty sensitive person in the
first place. But as I got these notes, I had the most amazing
teacher to talk to. She would give me so much support, and love.
I basically view her as a second mom, but one that I feel
comfortable telling anything to. (I don't really talk to my
parents). Anyway, I love this teacher so much, and she has helped
me through this all more than she would ever know. Recently, the
principal at my school went and told this teacher that she was no
longer allowed to talk to me. He thinks it's better off for
me not to talk to her. I've never talked to the guy before
but he seems to think he knows what's best for me. I
didn't know my principal had told my teacher this until
yesterday, so when my teacher started acting differently for the
past couple weeks, I believed she didn't care anymore. And if
she didn't care anymore, I knew no one really cared. So for
the past couple weeks I have been so depressed. I have cried
alone in the bathroom at school many times instead of running to
my teacher to give her a hug and feel better. The other day, I
was crying in there, and another one of my teachers came in. I,
of course, was wearing an easy identifiable outfit, and she could
tell it was me sitting on the floor in the bathroom stall. She
said my name, and I just couldn't stop crying. She brought me
down to the social worker, and yeah she helps but I need the
comfort from the teacher I am no longer allowed to talk to. My
principal is obviously an inconsiderate person for saying I
couldn't talk to her anymore. To me, it's extremely
unfair. Don't I have the right to talk to whoever I want to
talk to? It's like telling someone you can never talk to your
mom/dad/the person you look up to the most ever again. You could
only see them in the halls and look away from each other.
It's been so hard for me not to talk to her. I started
talking to her today. To see if maybe anything had changed. But
it hasn't. She was upset, I was upset. But I didn't want
her to believe it was her fault. She said she felt terrible. I
was trying not to cry, I didn't want to get her into trouble.
It felt like I was saying goodbye to her though. As if I
wouldn't be able to see her again. When I left saying well I
don't want to get you in trouble, with a crackling voice and
watery eyes, I don't think I have ever felt that miserable.
He took away my most important outlet in this world, and I
don't think I can handle all this anymore. I'm slowly
being destroyed inside but no one realizes it. The person that
did notice can't talk to me anymore. The person who was
pulling me up from drowning in the water was pulled away, and now
I'm struggling to get some air. I don't know what to do
anymore:(
DarkAngels · 1 decade ago
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This is happened to me aswell, it's so horrible! I really miss my teacher :( we're not allowed near each other and I've been removed from her lessons xx :(