He's silly and weird and
crazy.
He can make
me smile so easily it confuses me sometimes. I can be around
him for 0.0003 seconds and already smile. I guess just seeing
him makes me smile, hearing his voice. Or when someone talks
about him. It's amazing, really. I love talking to him,
being with him. I love him. I love this idea of him,
actually. Just this person who can make me smile and laugh in
the shortest time ever. Also, he changes my days. I was
crying one moment, call it a bad day, and already feel better
when I see him. Coach brought up his name today; I smiled. I
think coach knew something. Hopefully not, that could be
interesting. This boy, this boy drives me crazy. I never knew
it could happen this easily... falling for someone. I
don't know, I don't understand any of this. I just
want him to understand my thoughts about him. How much he
means to me. It drives me crazy, wanting him. I don't
know, just sometimes I need to see him in order to smile. I
love being with him. I'm sorry, he isn't even mine.
He never was, either. I still miss him. I don't know if
that's aloud. To miss someone you never had, to want
someone that much when you almost have no chance. The way he
says my name when he doesn't have to... it drives me
crazy. I don't know, thats all I can say to describe it.
"I don't know" Well, I sort of do know. I think
I sort of always have known, now that I see it.
I know I'm in love with
you. & it's silly and weird and
crazy.
