*Bruises and Black
Eyes*
Chapter 10
"I still
can't decide if meeting you was the saddest or greatest day
of my life. Because my heart is still spilt, into two peices made
up of love & hatred. And both sides hold your name."
-Unknown
The
first heartbreak. That moment when you hit rock bottom. If you
have ever experienced the first heartbreak, then you know the
feeling. It's like you lose control in your whole body,
except your chest. You literally feel your own heartbeat, and the
sinking feeling begins. Like the upper half of yourself is
melting to your feet.
I was in
the coffee shop with Logan, who last night was the boy of my
dreams. Come to find out, he didn't want to be in my dreams
but just in my bed. He sat there, sipping his black coffee, more
focused on his pounding head ache.
"Do you love me?" I heard
the sound of my voice, yet didn't feel my wet lips move.
Logan looked up from his coffee.
"Mel, now you just sound
crazy." He looked back at his coffee. I nodded my head; it
was pounding. I stood to my feet and ran out the door. I
didn't even look back to see if he was watching. I ran as
fast as I could down the side walk. 'Keep
running' I thought to myself.
Everything is messed up. I'm
messed up. Keep running.
I hate this town and I hate the new
empty house. Keep running.
I hate high school and everyone in it.
Keep running.
I hate the family I
don't even have. Keep running.
I hate the fact that the only boy on
earth that will put up with me is evil.
Keep running.
I ran until my feet gave out. I was panting,
and my lungs were trying to breath. I reached my house when my
entire body gave up. I jogged until I reached the green grass of
my front lawn, and fell to my knees.
"Mel...?" I looked up. Tyler
was standing on the front porch. "I've been ringing your
door bell for five minutes. I thought you were asleep." He
laughed. I got back up to my feet.
"Leave me alone Tyler." I
breathed. I was serious. He blinked at me.
"...What? Why? Did I do
something?" He looked so confused.
"Tyler you don't know me. You
have no idea who I am. I'm messed up; I have issues. Logan
knows I'm messed up.. Sort of. And he's still with me..
Kind of... He's the only boy that will put up with me. Some
times I think I'm crazy. Maybe I am. But I'm not just
about to dump the boy that I know will put up with me. Okay? So
leave."
My hands were in shaking fists.
It hurt so much to say it out loud. But I needed to. I needed to
end whatever what was going on. Tyler walked down the steps; eyes
locked on mine. He marched right over to me. His body met mine
and our lips touched. One hand held the back of my neck and the
other was around my waist, pulling me into him. Damn was that a
kiss. It was the most real kiss I think I've ever had. I
almost pinched myself to make sure it wasn't a dream. Tyler
pulled away and I'll never forget what he said.
"Mel, we all have issues.
One of your issues is trust. You're not ready to jump into a
new relationship. It's scary, I know. So, I'll wait. You
take your time with Logan, and we'll see how you and I go?
It'll be our secret."
And that's how Tyler and I became
a thing. Tyler of course had to watch the girl he loved be with
the wrong guy for two more years, but he lived with it. As for
me, I was the screwed up girl that was inlove with someone who
wasn't coming back, yet also inlove with that boy's best
friend.
Damn I'm messed
up.
Readers-- It is 2 AM and I'm
sitting here typing away for you guys. I posted chapter 9 on my
profile earlier today. Hope to do chapter 11 tomorrow. I just
want to say you guys have been so incredible. The support I have
gotten is amazing. I reall really love you guys <3
With a huge amount of
love,
Hannah
WhoThatGirl · 1 decade ago
I love you. Er, I mean I love this story. I LOVE YOU BOTH.
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