please help me. I feel alone. I feel confused. I feel lost. I
feel like it's been too long. Too long since I was happy. Too
long since I really talked to You. He doesn't believe in You.
but I know You're there, I know You'll protect us. I need
help, God. I don't know what happened. I've changed,
I've gotten older, but I haven't grown up. If I'd
grown up, I wouldn't be where I am now. I've made so many
wrong choices, and now I'm trapped. How do I fix this? Can I
fix it? Why are people so mean? Why is life so complicated? Was
it meant to be this way? Or did we ruin it for ourselves?
Whichever the reason, I need guidance, Lord. I need advice. I
need help. I know You'll provide what I need, but it
doesn't feel like it. I know You have reasons, and You work
in mysterious ways. I know You give us what we need, even if we
don't know it, but please, give me a sign, give me a reason,
give me something to cling to. Restore my hope. Replace my fight.
Lately I've strayed. I've gone of the path, I've lost
sight of the shore, and I've lost myself. Where do I find
myself, God? How do I fix this? How do I come back home? How do I
grow up? It's so scary, the future. But the present is scary,
too. I'm not a good friend, am I? I'm not a good person.
I've done horrible things. Please, just help me. Help me work
things out between You and I, between him and I, between the
world and I. I need to think things through, I need time. I
don't know how to express this. I don't know how to
express what I need anymore. I don't know what I need
anything, all I know is,