"That Night,"
3 weeks ago, all started when my mother and I had found ourselves in yet another huge blown-out argument like the ones we got in almost everyday. That night when all I heard waas my mother screaming " I want that f*cking c*nt out of my house and I want her out of my house now." and all I could feel was the numbness in my head where she had thrown the phone and it had struck me. That night I locked myself in my bedroom hearing the screaming, and the medicene in my hand hadn't looked the same as it once did. That night I said " I'm done trying, I give up, I've surrendered, you've won, you've got me down on my knees, kick me while I'm down." And then I took 52 tylenol. That night on the way to the hospital my vision was black yet my eyes were open. voices were a blur, I felt as if there was puke in my throat, I was so dizzy I couldn't stand, my head was pounding, and I couldn't think along with my arms and legs shaking uncontrollably. That night was the first of 3 nights spent in the E.R with 2 collapsed veins, 36 needles in my arms, adn blood drawn every 3 hours. That night I prayed I would stop breathing. That night was the first of 2 nights I wasn't allowed to eat or drink. That night lead to my stepfather asking my if I wanted him to buy me another bottle of tylenol to eat when I replied I was hungry. That night lead to 5 nights on suicide watch in the BSU. That night lead to dirty looks and whisphers and mumbles in the hallways. That night I had given up hope, but not all hope, because I still had hope that they hadn't given up hope of me for what I had done that night.

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"That Night," 3 weeks ago, all started when my mother

34 faves · 24 comments · Mar 30, 2013 5:33pm

thatonegirlwholovescatssooosoomuch · 1 decade ago
should have just killed yourself it gets rid of the pain
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Amen.
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The Chosen One* · 1 decade ago
I'm so happy you survived.That's so sad. And so many of those pills. Im glad you survived dont do that again. There's hope!! All us witians are here for you okay! We love you stay safe and stay strong!
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Thank you very much <3
I'm not glad that I'm still here honestly, but It'll go on, why would strangers be glad that I'm alive?
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The Chosen One* · 1 decade ago
No problem.
Oh,,, yeh it'll go on stay strong.
Because we hate when a wittian.. one of our own family would wanna die!<3
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
But yet, if I had, no one really would have known,,,

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Twilight_Saga23 · 1 decade ago
Thank God u survived! Please don't do that again, i was about to burst into tears while reading this (and i never cry) :P stay strong beautiful!
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Why Would you cry hun?
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Twilight_Saga23 · 1 decade ago
because someone as beautiful as u shouldnt have done that. you could have... :(
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
died? yeah I could have.
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LoveLaugh · 1 decade ago
honey i am so glad you survived. theres always hope, cause it can't rain forever. it may storm, and the storms may be horrible, but theres always sunshine and maybe even a rainbow to follow. i agree with wordynerdy, try taking a walk when you get upset. That's what i do. keep your head up, and please don't try this again. you deserve to live. you've got such a life ahead of you. so many people you will influence, lives you can save. don't let anyone bring you down. you are beautiful in every way. don't forget that darling. stay strong<3
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Thank you Hun <3
It really means a lot that you took time to read my quote and comment something as well, people don't realize that the tiniest comments can mean the world to people <3
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LoveLaugh · 1 decade ago
your definetly welcome. trust me, i know how much little things can make a difference. seriously if you ever need anything, anything at all, im here.
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Thank you so much for all the support that I don't get at home
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wordynerdy · 1 decade ago
Hun I am grateful that you survived. And don't listen to the things your family says. They can't force you to change who you are. You are so beautiful and one day things will get better. Maybe go for a walk when you get in an argument. That way there are no pills, no screams, no hurt, just nature and its beauty. Life will get better. And I am always here to talk when you need. Stay strong! <3 you will be in my prayers
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Thank you very much for taking the time to read my quote, for taking the time to comment it, for taking your time to be there, <3 I've tried other alternatives, and it just doesn't work.
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wordynerdy · 1 decade ago
well whenever you need it ill be here.
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
Thank you, very much <3
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pluto* · 1 decade ago
Did this happen to you? :o
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
All of my quotes are things that have happened to me yes, these are personal experiences, yes 3 weeks ago I overdosed. 3 weeks ago I stopped breathing.
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永久* · 1 decade ago
You are a crazy soldier by heart. You should have seen my expression while I was reading this o;
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
What was it?
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永久* · 1 decade ago
I was so freaked out what if something happened to you beautiful? Thank god you survived!
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Soldierbyheart · 1 decade ago
The something would have happened life Would go on.
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