I know it's
long, but please read
this.
Thinking of suicide ?
You’re
sitting in your room door locked with a pen in your hand and a
blank piece of paper infront of you. Your hand is shaking, and the
tears begin again for the third time in the past hour. ‘To my
family’ you write at the top of the page, but decide
it’s a bad way to begin your letter your suicide letter. You
try again, start over again and again, but you don’t
know
where to begin. No one understands you; no one knows what
you’re going through, you’re alone or at least
that’s what you think. Nobody would care if you’re
alive or not, you mean nothing to nobody.
It’s night, and you slip into bed. 'Goodbye' you
whisper into the darkness. And with that, you take your last
breathe and end it all.
Nobody cares, right? Well you thought wrong. The following morning,
your mother comes and knocks on your door. She doesn’t know
you can’t hear her; she doesn’t know you’re gone.
She knocks a few more times, calling your name to open up. When
there is no reply from your side of the door, she opens it and
screams. She collapses on the ground while your dad rushes to your
room. Your siblings have already left for school. Your very weak
mother collects all the energy she’s got which is close to
nothing to walk over to your bed. She leans over your dead body,
crying, squeezing your hand, screaming. Your dad is trying to stay
strong, but the tears escape his eyes; calling 911 with his left
hand while his other one is on your mother’s back. Your
mother blames herself. All those times she had said
‘no’ to you, all those times she had screamed at you,
and sent you to your room over something stupid. Your father will
blame himself for not being there for you when you asked for help,
for being away from home at work for long. Nobody cares,
right?
There’s a knock on your classroom door it’s the
school principle. The principle then announces about your
suicide. The popular girl that always called you fat and ugly is
now blaming herself. The kid that would always copy your homework
but treat you like crap he’s blaming himself. The boy
that sits behind you the one that always threw things at you
during class he’s blaming himself too. The teacher is blaming
herself for all those times she’d scream at you for
forgetting your homework, or not listening in class. People are
crying, screaming, shocked, in regret of what they did. Still
nobody cares about you, right?
Everything is different now.The popular girls have now turned
anorexic. They don’t know how to deal with the pain that
they’re feeling. Your father has depression; your mother
hasn’t slept for nights it’s all her fault. She’s
been crying and screaming every night wishing for you to come back.
The boy who would always bother you dropped out of school. The boy
that copied your homework now cuts. But nobody cares about you,
right?
Still think nobody cares about you? Think again. Even if people
don’t show it, they care about you, they love you. If you
kill yourself today or any other day you won’t know just how
much you meant to people. If you kill yourself today, it stops your
pain, but it pains all the ones who know you for the rest of their
life. Suicide is the easy way out - but it’s the wrong
choice. Life is beautiful. Yes, it does have its ups and downs.
Sometimes people go through tough times in their lives like
you’re probably going through now but bad times come and go.
You might not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but
it’s there.
Take a minute now, and think. If you killed yourself how
would the people that love you feel/go through? Can’t think
of anything? Well I’ll tell you: tears, tears, and more
tears. Devastation. Guilt. Pain. Broken. Regret.
Miserable.
If after reading this you still feel suicidal, there are people
that can help you. I’m here for you whenever you need me, and
I’ll be more than happy to listen to you and try to help you
feel better.
I hope this changed someone's life.
OneCHS · 1 decade ago
Can i please take your quote and put it my school news paper. We had and artical about cutting yourself and i think people need to understand that suicied thought are real and very harmful.
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