continuing...
Am I affraid of commitment? Is that all i want? Am i only good at pushing people away? Why doesn't anyone ever care enough to stay? Am i good at anything? Why can't i focus on what's important? Do i try too hard? Do i not try enough? Is there something actually wrong with me? Is it with how i look? My personality? Does anyone want to break down the walls that surround my heart? Is now just not my time? Will i have a time? Is "love" worth it? All this pain? Suffering? Why can't i know the reason for anything? Why can nothing make sense? Why does no one ever care? Do i even want someone to care? It's not bad if self-respect pushes people away right? Was he just a rebound? Were these all feelings from two years ago and not today? Do i still miss you? Do i still want to be with you? Do you even want to be with me like you tell people? Why don't you talk to me? Why does everyone leave? Am i not smart enough for this anymore? Is it because i can't put words together they way anyone else can? Is it be cause i'm dyslexic? What am i smart enough for? Do i actually like being lonely? Is being alone my escape? Are art and music always going to be my only way out? Should i look for happy endings? Do i get attached too easily? Am i the best to anyone? Does my family even care? Why do they ignore me? Why don't i feel needed by anyone? Am i needed by anyone? Will i ever be? 

these and so many more questions going through my head...i would type them out but i can't get all the words in the right order... there are just too many of them...