Dear ______,
I don't think you'll ever read this, because I don't
have the guts to show you it.
I never told you about my crush yet. His name is ___ ______ and I
think he's adorable. He's a sophomore, and he's really
nice. He seemed to care about my feelings, and we would have a
bunch of conversations. Even when he realized I liked him, he
didn't treat me any differently. The most confusing thing
though? He didn't even treat me badly when he saw the cuts on
my wrist and I told him they were my "cat". (Oh by the
way, I started cutting my wrist because I felt like an idiot
cutting my legs, like I wasn't "doing it right".)
There is no way he could believe those cuts were from my cat. But
when I told him a week later, that they were from me, he just
stopped. He stopped talking to me, saying hi, being nice, or caring
about me. Even before, I would get so nervous around him I would
shake and start to talk nonsense. That's what I do around
people I don't feel good enough for, I shake like crazy, and
that's what I do around you. I feel like I don't know how
to be a good friend, and at anytime I could screw everything up. I
feel so insecure and like I'm going crazy. I feel like I
don't know how to be a good friend. If something I do that
bothers you, please just tell me. Don't just keep it inside,
because then it hurts you. I am ALWAYS here for you. And I
don't judge. I will never judge you.
I love you so much.
-scared_scarred