when you hold everything in forever. then one day somthing just really ticks you off.

i feel like i'm gonna explode. i want to do somthing about whats bugging me, but at the time i can't. i start to stress and worry and all i wanna do is cry. i almost do. i'm tearing myself apart, about somthing that others think isn't a big deal, but to me it is.

so heres what this is about. i have a music compotition on the same day as a forensics compotition and it's freaking me out. ive done the music one for three years. but because i made a comitment to my forensics team, my mom might not let me go. but music is way more important. everytime i try to be in a music compotition or something, forensics gets in the way. i want a career in music. so i have to take every chance i get. and sometimes my parents don't realize how important the experiance is. i like forensics to, and thats the state compotition..... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.