Finding My Way
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Chapter 39: Val's P.O.V

Ben had been getting really distant since our kiss and I was getting anxious.
I should’ve known he didn’t feel the same way. He’s my best friend; I was confusing sympathy and care for love and even though I had Danny, I couldn’t help but be extremely disappointed.
I just wish he didn’t lead me on and kiss me like that if he didn’t feel the same way. I sighed, dropping my head in my hands.
I was so confused. And I was such a terrible person for cheating on Danny. And not telling him that I didn’t mean to say that I loved him. My relationship with him was a mess. But I couldn’t tell him, it would break his heart. What’s worse is that I think he would forgive me easily; he would just be disappointed in me.
But it wasn’t even like it was one time or even an accident; it’s been quite a few times and this time it was on purpose. I meant to kiss him, because I wanted to. That was the difference with this time.
But why was Ben avoiding me? That was why I always said it shouldn’t have happened; because I knew it would ruin our friendship. I was right, but I didn’t want to be. I needed to be wrong, I needed to talk to him and sort this out. I couldn’t lose him again over something so stupid. I could make my feelings for him disappear if that was what it took to stay friends with him.
 
Ben’s P.O.V.
I haven’t been going over Aly’s house for the past week, which might be a bad idea since the play is in one week and we need to be practicing and getting along, but I just can’t force myself to look at her. She keeps playing with my emotions like it’s a game and I don’t think I can take it anymore. The worst part is that I don’t even think she realizes it. She doesn’t even realize that I’m in love with her.
And I don’t know why she keeps kissing me when she’s dating Danny! Sometimes, like when we kissed, it feels like she feels the same way, like she wants to be with me. And I think maybe I was avoiding her because I didn’t want to hear her say that it was a mistake again, because I know it wasn’t.
She meant to kiss me. She wanted to kiss me. I could feel it, and I was sure. I was positive now that Aly had feelings for me, whether or not they were stronger than her feelings for Danny I wasn’t sure, or maybe I was completely wrong and she’s just so grief stricken and upset still that she needs all the love she can get, but regardless, I needed to make a choice now.


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