I'm done.
I told my parents everything. I got the help I need.
I'm done because I weigh the same as an eleven year old child, I'm fucking emaciated, I'm functioning on nothing, I'm throwing up everything I eat until I spit blood, and it's gotten to a point where I can barely dress myself because I'm scared of touching my body, scared of feeling all the fat.
I'm done with waking up every morning and leaving half my hair behind.
I'm done with the knowledge that I'm infertile, can't have children, because of this.
I'm done with keeping bags of vomit in my bedroom.
I'm done with bruising around my stomach.
I'm done with barely being able to walk thanks to laxative abuse,
I'm done with crying over food, crying because I don't want to eat it even though I haven't eaten all day.
I'm done with my hands constantly shaking.
I'm done with always being cold, the kind of impossible cold which you can't break through even with 5 layers of clothing and a sauna and a hot shower, because somehow, the cold is inside you, not outside.
I'm done with being withdrawn, moody, I'm done with hating everyone for no apparent reason.
I've wasted my life. I could've eaten icecream with my friends on summer nights whilst we talked about boys but it's 120 calories a scoop so no no no.
I'm scared of impromptu eating, scared of keeping the food down, scared of sitting still because I'm not burning calories.
I get people at the station when I get the train calling me a freak because I walk up and down whilst I wait, but I do that because I can't bring myself to stand still, can't face the guilt.
I'm DONE. I'm through with these FUCKING eating disorders.
This is it.
I'm recovering.
Because I'm thirteen years old and I have another sixty-odd years before I'm supposed to die.

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SeaButterfly · 1 decade ago
Stay strong <3
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funky_monkey52 · 1 decade ago
Oh my god. Congratulations. I wish you the best with your recovery. Stay strong.
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katiekaye97 · 1 decade ago
You're 13. This is not something you should even think about. You have so much life ahead of you. You can over come this you're gorgous and strong. You can do this. Don't ever give up. And the day you eat the ice cream? CONGRATS. It's delicious. You deserve to be happy.
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carlisius · 1 decade ago
YAY
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Stiff_Smile · 1 decade ago
Congratulations♥ I'm so proud of you.
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brittrox1234 · 1 decade ago
I AM HAPPY FOR YOU!!!::))
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ChekkaWay · 1 decade ago
I am SO glad to hear that! :) i hate hearing about people giving up! I hope it all turns out ok!
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notgivinafuuuck · 1 decade ago
I hope everything goes okay. stay strong <3
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xoshannonxo12 · 1 decade ago
I'm so proud of you, stay strong beautiful, I know you can do this <3
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rooftops* · 1 decade ago
You can do this. I know you can. I promise that you can. And I am so proud of you for getting help. You don't even know. You're amazing, and if you need me ever, I'm here.
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AmazingUsername · 1 decade ago
You can do this, stay strong <3
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Iron · 1 decade ago
Good for you, I wish you lots of luck in recovery
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Carly Natasha* · 1 decade ago
go for it girl, stay strong and remember, we all belive in you and we know you can get through this! We all love you♥
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bre_woof · 1 decade ago
I'm proud of you, congratulations beautiful.
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