I'm not going to
lie...
you made me
happier than anyone has ever made me before. You made getting up
in the morning
to go to school so much nicer when I knew I had a good morning
hug and someone who cared about
me waiting for me. The endless conversations, I miss those. And
the kissing in your car for only a
couple minutes before school started. That school hike we took,
and it was just you and me, for 5
hours. I miss that. I miss my best friend, and the relationshop
that I honestly never wanted to end. I
miss being able to hold your hand proudly at games, and sneakily
at assemblies. I miss when
teachers asked me where you were, because if you weren't with
me you must be missing. I miss how
all of our friends told me how cute you and I were. and I miss
the nicknames. I miss worrying about
what to wear in the morning to impress you, and I miss the
goodnights that made going to sleep hard. I
miss passing you in the hall ways and smiling, and I miss you
waiting for me by the freshman lockers. I
miss seeing your eyes make contact with mine, and I miss the
phone calls we had. I miss joking with
you about everything. And I even miss the fights about me being
jealous. I misss it all
But the thing is, I guess I could of been a much better
girlfriend. I could of never got jealous over your
perfect best friend. The prettiest girl in school the honor roll
student the star volleyball player. The
nicest one. The school President. The funny one the one you
had all your classes with The one that
everyone said you two
acted like you were dating I guess
should of never got jealous Because obviously I was too easy to
let go of. I thought our relationship at
least meant more than one text that said "its just not
working out" I thought everything I missed meant a
little something to you. I was surprised when I showed up at
school the next day, and you were a jerk,
as if I wasn't sad enough. But what really bothered me is i
tried so hard to get you back, to get you to
give me
another chance and you flat out told me we would never be
together again. But you still had the nerve
to text me that next day, and the day after that, and after that,
acting like nothing happened between
us...that we were friends. And when I pointed out to you that it
was just too hard for me at the time, you
freaked out and shut me out of your life..completely. You didnt
understand how hard it was to talk to
the person you love, who might I add doesnt love you back, right
after they told you that it just wasnt
working out and that you would never get back together, how hard
it would be to face that. To face
him, But I did, and yes I admit I was rude and bitter the day
after the breakup but that was my hurt
feelings talking. By the next day when anyone tried to be rude
about you I defended you. and you
knew that. I was nice to you, and you shrugged your shoulder. II
would say one word to you...and your
friends would make a mean comment, and you'd be mean right
along...as If i never meant anything
.
Now really what I miss the most...is simply you.
♥