I dont know what its like to be happy anymore. I only know what its like to not want to be here anymore... no one would care. No one would cry. I would leave a note explaining why. But i cant do this anymore, try to be happy.. im sorry, ive pasted a fake smile on my face for awhile, but when i get home i cry for hours.. I go home and lock my bedroom door and just stay there. I dont eat. I dont socialize. Just cry because im worthless, because no one cares, just because i dont deserve life.