Never Be the Same
Chapter 18: Kendra's POV
I walked through the hallway quickly, turning
into the guest room where Alana slept in her crib until her
nursery was finished.
"I got her, don't worry," Sam reassured, cutting in
front of me to the crib.
He slowly lifted the squirming, crying little girl, and hoisted
her over his shoulder as he tried rocking her back to sleep.
"Shh," he soothed, rubbing up and down her tiny back,
"Daddy's gotcha, it's okay."
Her cries deepened for just a brief second, before completely
disappearing.
Her bright blue eyes, exactly like her father's, widened and
became full of happiness again as she looked over Sam's
shoulder at me.
I smiled, waving at her as I spoke in a high-pitched baby voice
making her babble happily.
"Babe, can you do me a favorite and go grab my laptop from
my desk, I'll finish my essay in here so I can get her to
sleep." Sam finally said, cradling our daughter as he took a
seat on the guest bed.
I eyed him momentarily. The two of us hadn't been on
"talking terms" for the past two days.
I was actually surprised he was even noticing my exsistence, let
alone speaking to me.
With the rush of us trying to move into Sam's parents travel
apartment together, and Alana's arrival, and schoolwork, both
of us were completely irratable with each other.
It was obvious all Sam was trying to do now was avoid a fight in
front of the baby, and I wasn't going to argue with
that.
I liked this relaxed, normal us right now, not the exhausted,
cranky, stressed out us that agrue over nothing and usually are
around 95% of the time.
But, I knew if she was asleep right now, and
we were talking somewhere else, we'd already have our voices
raised at each other.
"Yeah, sure Sam." I said with a quick smile as I left
the room.
I shut his laptop and grabbed off of our bed, and walked back
into the guest room, handing it to him.
Sam happily took it and placed it beside him.
"You're the best, babe. I love you." he grinned,
pecking my lips.
At that moment, I felt as if everything was back to how it was
between us, right before Alana came.
Not that it was a bad thing that she was here now, things were
just more stressful with a baby around.
But that second felt like we were two normal 19 year olds living
together while we're still in college, not a care in the
world rushing through our mind.
However, I knew it was all an illusion, an act he was putting on
around our daughter only.
For all I know, that simple kiss may mean nothing to him anymore.
He probably just feels obligated to be with me, since we have
Alana together now.
"I love you too, Sam." I said, before taking a seat
beside him.
I watched for a moment as he stared intently at the computer
screen, before beginning to type.
I decided to take Alana away from him to let him get some work
done, so I picked up the baby, and sat down across the room
in the rocking chair we also brought in here earlier last
week.
I admired her onesie that Dana, Jamie, and I bought for her, just
the other day when we all went to the mall together.
I felt a pair of eyes on me, and looked over to Sam, who was
watching as I played with Alana with a smile upon his face.
"What?" I asked, suddenly feeling self-conscious.
His face softened up, and he sighed as he shut his laptop,
"I hate fighting with you, Kendra." he finally
confessed, after two days.
I turned my focus away from Alana, and looked up over to Sam.
"Yeah, and?" I asked, cueing for him to keep on
going.
"And I'm sorry I've been such a complete jerk to you
lately. I'm just too stressed to even think straight, you
know?" he replied.
I looked down at the baby resting on my shoulder, seeing she was
back asleep.
I stood up, completely forgetting about Sam for a moment, and
carefully put her into her crib.
"I know, Sam. I know." I finally replied, folding my
arms over my chest.
"So, does that mean you forgive me?" he asked, his eyes
opening wider as his eyebrows raised with hope.
I shook my head, and his face immediately fell down to an upset
frown.
I smiled, crawling up beside him, and kissing his lips.
"That means I forgive you." I grinned as I pulled
away.
Bleeeeh, this is getting pretty boring so
far, but it'll be better:)