I have to get this out some way or I think I'll go mad...So
here we go, I feel like my life is spiraling out of control. I feel
like I'm completely on my own, like I have no one anymore. And
I've had this thought, I've been thinking about it a lot, I
have this thought that I belong absolutely no where because I just
do not fit in. At school, at home, no where. I feel like there is
no one else out there like me or even some what like me, or that
understands or even cares what I go through day to day. It was one
thing when I was physically alone, but to be mentally alone is a
far worse thing. My home life has never been good, but lately its
been awful. I ended up getting kicked out and having all of my
things besides my clothes thrown in the trash. With no where to go
I was forced into the arms of my father who hasnt been around or
even talked to me in 2 years. I live here and eat here and sleep
here, but this is just a house, not a home. If that wasnt all bad
enough, everyone else had to kick me when I was down. I feel like
all of my friends hate me. Im left out everything, I cant even
remember the last time one of them asked me to hangout. Usually
when I ask them to hangout they're all too busy..Sometimes I
just want to walk up to them and be like "how would you feel
if the only friends you had left had a sleep over with eachother
and you were the only one not invited, ever?" and they all
make me feel like Im bothering them when I try to vent to them, you
have no idea how badly I just want someone to listen.. And I'm
ALWAYS the bad guy. The one who corrupted them. If you dont want to
do something, then say no, you make your own desicions, I never
forced anyone try anything they didnt want to. It seems like when I
needed my friends the most they all disappeared, yet I was ALWAYS
there for them. I dont know what the point of this quote is, I dont
even care if anyone reads this, I just had to get it out some way
because I have no one left to listen.