You - Yes, you. Ever have suicidal thoughts? Ever
wonder if people would miss you if you were gone? Ever wonder
how it would feel to be. . . well, dead? Well, so
have I. I have occasionally wondered how everything would be if I
were dead. I popped the question to a few friends, family, and
myself. Remember - you are feeling suicidal, or you
are suicidal - whichever you are, it is just a
state of being, a feeling.
Feelings go away over time. With help, they can, and even on their
own they will. If you are suicidal, it is easy to
change your view on life when you find out how. And I am here to
First off, think about everyone you've ever met. Held a
conversation with. Maybe you were a teacher's pet for one or a
few teachers. If you have any siblings, think about them. If you
have a dog, think about them. Now think, how would their lives
change? Well. . .
-Your friend(s) would be in devastation. They would think,
'where did I go wrong?' (Like in the Fray's 'How to
Save a Life'. They would cry their eyes out, and feel as if
they had done nothing when you may or may not have cried to them
for help. But remember, having a suicidal friend isn't easy
either. I know firsthand. Though I tried my best, she would say
that she didn't see a purpose for living. Luckily, she is still
alive today and is enjoying life. Anyways, your friend(s) could
develop depression, an eating disorder, etc (depending on how close
you were). Either way, you will be greatly missed. Imagine if one
of your closest friends died. How would that affect you? It is
important not to be selfish when contemplating suicide. Because the
deletion of your existence would affect many.
-Your past beloved teacher(s) will greatly miss you. They wanted to
see how you would grow up to be, and how much knowledge you
-Your sibling(s). You fought and fought and fought with them. You
called each other ugly. They wished you were dead. Deep inside,
they don;t. They'd be devastated. Who would protect them
against bullies at school, online, etc? Who would offer advice? Who
would tease you, challenge you? They would miss you greatly,
believe it or not. I know my sibling has called me ugly, fat,
whale, but I know that she would miss me if I were to leave. I know
that soon she'd want to be an aunt to my children. I cannot
take that away from her. It is not her fault that I get angry at
times. Remember, they cannot control how you take things. Most are
oblivious to how they make you feel. Many don't know or
understand, so it's best to tell them.
-Your pet. Dogs in particular sense when one is gone - And your dog
would be pacing back and forth, back and forth around your house,
restless. 'Where have they gone?' They think helplessly.
They walk around in your room, and get up and lie on your bed. They
sniff your scent, wishing you were there. All of those times you
pet your dog, played with them, they remember it faintly, and miss
you. They sense something is off with the rest of your family.
-Your parents. Whether they are living or dead, they want you to do
well. Carry on your family pride by living and doing what you live.
Make them proud. They will be in devastation if you leave, and
though some may say they don't care, truth is, they do. They do
care. If they're always stressed and seem mad at you, maybe
they have financial problems, health problems, etc. Not all parents
will reveal if anything is wrong to their children.
-Boyfriends/Girlfriends past and present. I don't have a
boyfriend. Never have. But if you have had one, or do, ask them for
help. They will miss you greatly. Your past loves will wonder what
they did wrong, and/or if they caused it. If boys/girls
are the source of your depression, remember: This too shall pass.
Don't get hung up all over someone who may not even care about
you. Because soon you will find someone who is PERFECT for you, and
will compliment you. But how will you ever find that out if
you're either ashes in an urn or six feet below the ground?
The point is, many will miss you. You are young. You have a future
ahead. If you still feel haunted by your thoughts, find a hobby. If
you don't feel like your hobby takes your mind off of things,
find another one, because that one isn't good enough. I
crochet. I play my instrument. I write out all of my feelings in
INK to really let it settle in. I cry it all out at night and wake
up with a great, big smile on my face. I talk to my friends about
it, my mom (who assures me that it will pass), and even my dog.
When I cry, my dog licks away all of my tears and stays by my side,
curled up beside me on my bed behind my locked door. Call it
disgusting, but honestly, it is a sign of affection and caring and
love that dogs can provide. If you don't have one,
consider getting one. They are great help, comfort, company, a
great alarm system if someone creepy is behind or around you while
walking, they make you feel loved, and petting them can help lower
blood pressure. If you or a family member has allergies, consider a
poodle or maltese. These breeds don't shed, are caring and
intelligent, and are hypoallergenic, though they do require a daily
brushing to keep them looking cute and knot free. But the brushing
can be theraputic, with repeated strokes. They can even help you
get out more and take daily morning walks. Daily morning walks on
break or walks when I can on the weekend really help me out, and
make me feel happier and refreshed. Talking to yourself or a dog
can help you organize your thoughts. Talk to a close friend you
really trust. Anyways, the main idea is to find a hobby that suits
you. Once you find it, living becomes amazing.
Nothing in life is easy. Nothing worth having comes easy. There are
OTHER people out there that are suicidal, too. They think that
nothing will get better. But to be honest, you don't need a
therapist to help you realize this: It gets better. My mother told
me that and I stick by it. Life will get better, sooner or later.
And you, my lovely, should be alive to see that happen. Remember,
once you're DEAD, you're DEAD. Think about all of the great
things you'll be missing if you die. Please, be thoughtful and
intelligent. Consider all of the people/pets I have mentioned
above. Nothing will be the same. Nothing will get better if you
die. Stay strong. I know it's hard to believe, but stay strong.
You're not alone. My ask box on Tumblr is
ALWAYS open, and anonymous IS on if you are shy. I
will reply publicly if anonymous, so you can see the reply, and
privately if you are off anonymous. I will help you, I promise. I
will try to lighten the mood up for you, too. Anything. With school
and all, I will do my very best to answer you, so please keep that
in mind. Click on my other links to Free Rice, Rainy Mood, Quiet
Place, the Thoughts Room, go on Cleverbot and talk to an insane
robot, and distract yourself. Because you're worth it. Please
remember this whenever you're feeling down. Because
suicide isn't going to help anything. It's going to make
You - Yes, you. Ever have suicidal thoughts? Ever wonder if people
Sep 13, 2012 1:25pm