Dear Austin,
i'm sorry. i'm sorry i walked away that night and i'm
sorry i let your hand fall to your side. you can't begin to
imagine what was going through my mind at that moment. i think i
was too much in shock to realise the oppertunity right in front of
me. not many people get second chances, not to mention third
chances. but i threw mine away.. for what? for another boy who
couldn't care less about me. but you. you always cared. you
held me when i felt like i was breaking. you showed me what it felt
like to love. you wanted me unconditionally. and now i want you. i
want you back. you're the only one who can fix me, who can
piece me back together. we were so young back then, we deserve a
chance. and this time i believe we could be something amazing. we
could work. this could work. i just need to get a hold of you
again. i need to kiss you. to see if it's still there. i want
you. i've always wanted you. i will always want you. i still
compare every boy i meet to you, which is both a curse and a
blessing. but your memories make me smile when i need them most.
which makes me believe that you will be there when i need you most.
but austin.. i need you right now. i need you to find the stregnth
to come up to me and say something. to fight for this. to fight for
me. because that's all i've ever truly wanted. to be worth
someone's attention. and you're all i've ever truly
wanted. my one, my only.
Dear Austin, i'm sorry. i'm sorry i walked away that
