I will be honest and say that I run away from most of my
problems. I really do. Everything that may be a problem, I turn
the other way. What people don't understand though, is that I
run, not because I don't want to deal with it but because I
can't deal with it. It hurts to much to deal with late
homework or to talk about something I did with the 'rents. I
just want to escape from the world and live in my fantasy world.
Yes I know it's silly but everyone does it everyone once and
awhile, right? So let me have that.
I guess I haven't let go of that kid in me. The one that
doesn't have to deal with problems, who leaves that up to the
parents. Who doesn't have to worry about what everyone thinks
of her, how to hide the cuts on her legs and the scars on her
wrist.... She doesn't have to worry about that, however I do.
And I don't want to. I shouldn't have to.
Not when I'm not ready...