Recovery
I don't know how much longer i can do
tthis. it kills me to have to gain weight. to have
to eat more then a small meal a day. i weigh the most i
have in over 2 months right now. it's a struggle
every single day and i'm not sure i can do it anymore.
recovery is supposed to help, supposed to make you feel better
and yet i just want to cry everyday. i'm tired of feeling
fat. i just want to be skinny and light. why is
that so bad? i just can't wait til i'm allowed to do what
i want to do, to be able to weight what i want to weigh. i
can't wait til i can take control of myself without anyone
having a say. screw you recovery..you won't last
for long.
