I wake up at 5:30a.m. to get ready for school.
I roll out of my warm bed and walk across the bathroom hallway to
get to the guest room, Vanessa’s room. I knock on the door
three times. I hear nothing, but a grunt and moan. I open the door
to see Vanessa still sleeping, but tossing and turning in the
covers. “Wake up, sleepy head!” I yell only a few
inches from her ear. She makes a noise that sounds like a mix
between a shriek and a moan. She barely opens her eyes and looks at
me. I start to walk back to the bathroom and I chuck a throw-pillow
that was on the floor at her. She jumps up to sit up in bed and
looks at me irritated.
“Vanessa! You have to get up! James is picking us up around
6:45ish.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah…” She simply replies while
getting out of bed. “I didn’t have time last night to
set everything up so I didn’t get to set up my
alarm…” She adds. “Well, we don’t have
school tomorrow anyways at least.” I say back to her while
combing out my hair. “It’s supposed to get up to high
70’s today so dress for hot weather!” I yell to her.
“Mhm.” She replies. I decided to wear a cute sun dress.
She just threw on a pair of shorts and a tee shirt. This is our
outfits: (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=51679210). We finish
fixing our hair and doing our makeup just in time for the sound of
James honking his car. We run down the stairs, my dad has already
left for work, but we say bye to my mom. Then we go out the door.
Once again we hop into the car and I lean over to give James a
kiss. Then we drive off. Once we get to school, we three walk in
together. James is holding my hand on my left, and Vanessa is
walking next to me on my right. Everybody stares; I guess they were
all surprised that Vanessa and I were friends again. I heard a girl
from our grade, Jaymee, say: “How can those two be friends?
Look at them, they look like complete opposites, you have a girly
popular and then a rebel.” She says it to her friend Lily.
James lets go of my hand and kisses me on the cheek to go talk to
his best friend, Matt. Ky and Jo approach and Ky takes my left and
Jo shrugs Vanessa away from me to steal my right. While they are in
mid-sentence I just completely stop walking and look over to
Vanessa, “Sorry, Jo, but you took Vanessa’s spot, she
was there first.” Then I look directly at Vanessa,
“Aren’t you coming?” She comes back on my right
with a smile and a smirk. Jo looks confused. “If you guys
want me in the popular group then Vanessa has to be right there
with me, she’s my best friend.” I make sure to state
clearly. “I don’t care if she’s in the popular
group with us, Vanessa’s fine.” Ky assures me. Jo nods
in agreement. I look at Vanessa with a wink. We all pass Emily
while laughing. I sort of forgot about her to be honest. She still
looks as if she’d been crying. “She’s so
pathetic.” Jo says making sure Emily hears. “Yeah and
she’s ugly, what happened to her?” Ky laughs at her own
sentence. Vanessa just glares at me, I know what she’s trying
to tell me… “Come on guys don’t be so
harsh.” I finally say. “Well, she definitely aint
perfect no more.” Jo says. Ky laughs. I cant take it, why is
Jo being so mean? Vanessa gives me that glare again. “Okay
Jo”, I laugh, “Trust me, you aren’t perfect
either and how about you speak less like an idiot… the
correct way to say that is she definitely isn’t
perfect any more.” I put emphasis on her mistakes.
Jo just looks down at her feet, but also gives me a despicable
glance. Vanessa gives me glare to tell me I made it worse. The
bells rings and rings and rings again. I got through two blocks now
and I head to lunch. I bring my tray of food over to the popular
table. Jo and Ky both aren’t eating, again. “Woah,
woah, woah! Ava, you’re eating food? That must be why
I’ve noticed you’ve gained weight…” Jo
makes snide remarks. “What? I’m gaining?” I ask
concerned. I have been eating a lot more lately, ever since I
started dating James I have been eating a lot. Oh my god what if I
am gaining, I don’t want to be fat! “Yeah, you’re
getting a little chunky!” Jo snaps. Ky hits her arm and tells
her to shut up. I run out of the lunch room and hear Ky asking Jo
why she’s such a b*tch. I run to the bathroom handicap stall.
More room. I kneel by the toilet and jam my finger in the back of
my throat, and I throw up. I haven’t made myself throw up for
a while. And I have been eating more lately so I threw up a lot.
James and Vanessa met up in the lunch room and were both looking
for me. Jo told them I had to use the bathroom and that I should be
back. So, they just sat down to wait. After throwing up… a
lot. I just sat on the stall floor leaning against the wall. Before
I know it tears start flowing non-stop down my face. I’m
sobbing terribly. In a pause of my sobbing I hear someone else
crying in the next stall over. I can see a piece of them sitting
leaning against the stall wall too. I see their shoes. They were
wearing pink heels. I hear her talk. “Hey, can you please
pass me some toilet paper?” I hear her sobbing while asking.
“Mhm, here.” I reply sobbing. She hangs her hand under
the stall into mine. I pass the toilet paper to her. I see her
bracelet. It was a charm bracelet that said, ‘Emily’ on
it. Oh my god, Emily is crying in the next stall over! That makes
sense, Emily was wearing pink heels when I saw her this morning.
“Why are you crying?” I ask while still sobbing.
“Because I hate my life” She replies. “And
you?” She asks. “Well, my life just
sucks…” I answer her. “Can we come out and talk
to each other?” She asks. I cant let her know it’s me,
but maybe I should… “Yes.” I answer not
realizing I was answering. I hear her stall door unlock and open. I
unlock mine and walk out to see her standing there, mascara running
down her face. I see my reflection in the mirror, mine was
too.
