"Dear Ex-Boyfriend" ~
I'll be the first to admit that I miss you~
~ We have been broken up for almost 5 months now and
everyday I still think about you and wish that the least you would
do is text me to just say hey and we could have some small talk at
least. The worst thing is that I know that will never happen
now because you found someone else. You were friends with her
when we were dating which scares me a little bit because it makes
me wonder if you were using me to get to her. My heart tells
me thats not true so I try not to think about it too much. I
see how happy you are with her but honestly we were together long
enough that I can tell when you force a smile. You told me
you would take me on my first roller coaster this summer since I
was so terrifed but now I see that that will never happen and one
of my best friends took me on one. The problem is that the
whole time I was thinking about you and what it would be like if
you were holding my hand because I felt so safe when I was with
you. I'm surviving without you and I honeslty hope you
are happy and that she doesnt hurt you no matter what. I want
you to know that I am here for you no matter what but I have a
feeling you won't talk to me anymore. You said
"happy birthday!" to me on my wall on monday so I said
"thank you!" then you said "your welcome"
that is the most contact we have had since your birthday when
the same thing was said but the other way around. I am not
the person to judge but she is not your type and isnside I think
you know that. I spend my days tryihg to forget about you but
secretly in the back of my mind I still hold my phone close to me
hoping that the next time it vibrates your name will show up.
It always fails to but I still keep my hopes up. I know
that if you do text me that all the time I have been spending
trying to get over you will not have been worth it because all
those feeling will come rushing back and I know I will not have you
because you now have her and she is soo much prettier and skinnier
than me. We used to have dreams about eachother the same
nights and I am starting to have dreams about you again, does that
mean your thinking about me again? Dosn't personality
take a part in a relationship too though?...I guess I just still
feel for you and miss you...but theres nothing I can do about it
</3
~If you just read all of this you truly have a heart and I
cant thank you enough, sometimes I just need to vent on here when
noone else will listen </3
"Dear Ex-Boyfriend" ~ I'll be the first to admit
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Jun 21, 2012 10:48pm