Just venting...:/

The truth is i'm not happy, i haven't been happy for a while now... i put on a fake smile and pretend im okay and try and hide the tears back but the truth is i am dying inside.. theres so many things that have happened in my life just this year.. i wish i could go back to last year and 7th grade when everything was good and i was still at my old school. I would of never left my best friends, who i've known forever. I miss everything about last year.. & ill never get that back again. I mean don't get me wrong i have amazing friends now but its not nor will it ever be the same as before, thats all.. I feel like some people have just forgotten, & no longer care about even being friends with me, and i don't know why because all im doing is trying to keep the same relationship, but its not the same and i hate it. I hate feeling like the only one who even cares, but i guess everything happens for a reason..right?